Depressed.

Today I feel depressed. It doesn't have anything to do with my weight. It's how I feel. I miss my Grandma so so so much. I wish I could drive around the corner to her house and chill out with her in the den. Those were priceless and fun moments. Although we were just sitting there watching tv or on the computer, it was still a good moment to talk to her and laugh with her. I have been strong this entire time, but I feel lonely. I have dismissed guys that have tried to talk to me, I don't text or call them back like I say I would...I just ..I don't care about them. I just want my Grandma back. That is all.